July 16th, 2012

crossed heart

not so much with the writing & Dark Paradise

Originally published at Cassie Alexander. You can comment here or there.

Been so busy, in real life and at work, ugh, and there’s no end in sight. Some of the upcoming stuff will be fun though, hooray :D

I’ve worked a ton this past week, and then I went to a show on my off day, and then worked some more. Luckily, I’ve earned a few days off to go up to see my folks for my mom’s birthday, I’ll be driving up there tomorrow.

I keep intending to write on break at work, but between being exhausted and not feeling right about things, I haven’t worked on Deadshifted in about a week. I got stymied with what should come up next in the book,  when what I wanted to do didn’t flow. Despite the fact that I know where everything’s going, I want it all to happen in the best possible plotting-emotional order. When I feel my gut pushing back, there’s always a tension between “am I not working on this because I’m procastinating?” or “am I not working on this because it’s the wrong rabbit trail?” I decided it was the latter and waited a bit to see if I could figure out what the problem is. I believe I’ve solved it — surprise, surprise, it involves GOING BACK TO THE BEGINNING again, sheesh — but I haven’t had a chance to implement things yet. I’ll be working on that this upcoming week off while I’m at my folks :D.

Randomly, I bought Lana Del Rey’s album when it was on sale on Amazon the other night. (Until then, I’d just been a lazy cheap person who watched her videos repeatedly on You Tube late at night when I was PMSing.) I’m glad I did — one of her songs that I hadn’t heard was Dark Paradise. There’s demo versions of Dark Paradise on youtube, but not the album version, except for here: Dark Paradise. It’s a freaking great song, with some really good lines: and there’s no remedy for memory / your face is like a melody, it won’t leave my head. I don’t know why I love it so much, except that moody teenage wanna-be-goth Cassie thinks it is amazing and has been listening to it on repeat ever since I found it.

Annnd, yeah ;). More later when I resurface in daylight a few days from now, with hopefully some progress to report :D.