July 18th, 2011

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starting on Shapeshifted (um finally) — and Nightshifted pushed back, in a good way

Originally published at Cassie Alexander. You can comment here or there.

Ah, how internet searches wax and wane. I'm not the Cassie from Intervention (merely a Cassie, who mentioned Intervention), but I'll be looking out for that episode now, thanks search engine gods ;).

Worked a ton. Got sent all over the hospital again. It's great to see things, but exhausting. Got to see/help with someone's charcoal-ling, after an OD. That stuff is like tar. Good thing I wasn't wearing cute scrubs.

Spent all my breaks working on an outline for Shapeshifted. I'm meeting with my alpha reader for lunch tomorrow, so between the fear of disappointing him, and actually wanting to get working on stuff, it's good. My brain's showing me conversations now, pieces of characters, horrible things that will happen to characters I love, and crazy twists and turns again. I'm not sure just yet how it'll all connect, and indeed that's not entirely the point, but things are going well. The last time I thought I knew what I was doing, and I got set into a wrong rut that then took hours and 50,000 words of overwriting to replace. The goal this time is to stay flexible until I see a path that's stronger, and talking things out tomorrow at lunch will be a part of that.

I've also been reading a ton of research books. I know I don't know enough, but I'm trying really hard to do things right, in a culture that is only peripheral to my own. I think I can do it -- and I'm dying to see if I can pull it off, because it's new, no one's really gone there before, and I'm over white-chick UF in a big way -- but I don't want to screw up...while knowing that I'm not even aware of all the three thousand ways I could possibly screw things up about. Trying "real hard" when one is culturally appropriating isn't enough. I have to really get it right, or so close that the good things far outweigh the bad. It'll be a work in progress till some trusted readers say that it's OK.

Oddly, even though it's due in Dec, I don't feel rushed yet, and have every intention of turning it in on time. I'm sort of an on-timer and not a procrastinator, so I feel I am where I need to be on Shapeshifted, right now. I'd be panicking, otherwise ;).

In other news -- which probably deserves its own post-- Nightshifted's publication has been pushed back to June 2012.

I was a little bummed out, because it feels like I've been waiting forever already (where forever = my entire life!) but June's probably a better month than Jan anyhow -- more people looking for a summer reading fling, and boy howdy will Nightshifted be the book for them ;).