June 30th, 2011

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N is for Nervous

Originally published at Cassie Alexander. You can comment here or there.

I will not be making a fool of myself tonight. I will not be making a fool of myself tonight. I will not be making a fool of myself tonight.

Things will go well, people will be friendly, and all this anxiety will be for nothing.

Is it wrong of me to hope for someone to have a medical emergency so I can feel useful and have something to do/talk about? Maybe a grease fire will start up. No, those are awful. I'd say a small choking, but someone famous must have choked to death once in New York, because rescue signs for that are everywhere. Plus, I don't think I could do a decent Heimlich in heels. Anyhow. Ahem. Repeat. I will not be making a fool of myself tonight.

Today's already gone awesomely -- I met Sherrilyn Kenyon! I stayed around after her award speech today to meet her. Her speech was the most touching thing ever. I thought I had had a lot of rejection on my path to publication, but holy cow...I don't know if I could have gone through everything that she did and kept pushing on. I'm just not that strong. (You guys know I'm tough, and where I work and what I do. But after hearing her life story, trust me,  she's super tough.)

I was going to wedge another panel in, only I knew I was too nervous to really just sit there and listen to someone else speak. I have to change into another outfit and redo my makeup and head off to my agency thing, and then off to St. Martin's party, too.

Okay. Today's been good. Tonight's gonna be great. Everything will turn out just fine.

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A is for AWESOME :D

Originally published at Cassie Alexander. You can comment here or there.

Hooray! I had fun tonight. Everything was rad :D.

My brother happened to call before I left, so I talked to him some, and then I chatted with a friend online -- it really helped to lower the anxiety level, phew ;).

The Folio Lit agency meeting/drinks thing was so cool. I got to spend more time with my awesome agent, Michelle Brower, and meet a lot of the rest of the Folio staff -- and a ton of their authors, which was cool. I feel like I know-know some romance authors now, finally :D.

Perhaps the awesomest part of dinner was when Michelle said if I hit a NYT list for Nightshifted, or any of the books in that series, one of us would fly in and we'd go get my heart-syringe logo tattooed on ourselves together :D. We even pinkie-swore. That is agent commitment right there, my friends.

After that, a bunch of us went over to the St. Martin's party together. We were up at the top of the Flatiron building. I'm too tired now to post pix, but I'll put some up tomorrow with more context. The party was super crowded, full of industry professionals and authors, and gave me a chance to say hi to Rose again :D.

I kinda feel, for the tiniest bit, that I sort of have the seed of a family out here with these people now. A toehold. I gave away some business cards today, I was actually able to give good "how do you find an agent" advice, and I have the names and emails of some people who might actually remember who I am next year, and I just might bug them in between now and then ;).

I have a little bit of the day here tomorrow, and then lunch with a friend, and then off to the airport. I'm so looking forward to going home, I miss my husband and my cat -- but I'm really excited about everything that I got to do and the people I got to meet out here :D.