June 3rd, 2011

crossed heart

Originally published at Cassie Alexander. You can comment here or there.

So as you might have noticed (or heard me talk about at Wiscon) I've been a little stressed recently. Unsurprisingly, that continues. I sent my first 50k to my alpha reader tonight, and while it's not completely perfect, he says that it works, and I'm inclined to agree.

I have learned *so much* about story structure and scene function this book i hope to hell that next time will be easier. Way, way easier. Please.

Am I still scared I'm screwing it all up? Oh yes. And that it's not tight and gorgeous and that there's too many people and it's a little confusing? That too. I suspect my editor will have very helpful suggestions in the future on those points, and I can't wait, because she's awesome and I'm sure she'll see it all far more clearly than I currently can.

At least right now though, I can finally taste the end. Just a little bit. It's all I'm looking forward to -- the slaughterhouse-like carnage that I've already written for the final 15k. I cannot *wait* to get to there. Just another 20k of fixing *coughrewritescough* to slog through...